This rain is depressing me. But I am still in a pretty good mood. School is almost done, i have to sit through a 3 hour class tomorrow morning and then i just have 2 finals left :) Tomorrow is teh show and we are playing the new song, which is currently titled bedpuke hahaha thanks swisz. Im really excited for it too casue i think it might be our best song. and it will fill up our set at 4 minutes and 22 seconds. plus i finally got to write a song with the band.

Anyway i have work in an hour and 1/2 but its only 4 hours. Frank might stay the night too which would be cool, well rent a game for wii and get pumped for the show. Infact anyone in the band can if they want. So ill wake up go to shcool for as long as i have too then come back practice and then leave for the show. We will be grilling up good stuff. so go.

I miss lindsey a lot. but she is half way through being grounded so thats good. plus i get to go see her today when i get off work :) idk ive just been really happy with things there :):):)

Blah blah blah ill update after the show

Its 2:10 a.m. and im supposed to wake up early to start doing a long list of things. School is almost over i cant wait until summer! I really dont know what to talk about so im going to put down my plans for the week.

Monday - Yard work here, rakeing the back, and mowing and edging in the front... Cleaning my room and making room for band practice AND!!! my new couch/foldout bed! and having practice which should be good casue we kinda have a show this weekend.

Tuesday - School 11:10-2:30 (last week of classes :) ) After work 4-9 in dairy!! which im excited for casue I havnt got to work dairy in forever.

Wednsday - Working over my grandpas hopefully for like 7 hours. Then practice later.

Thursday - School 11:10 -2:30 Then off to Grand Rapids for The Human Abstract and then a night of festivities over at allisons house :) i wonder if she still has my 5th i left their last time haha.

Friday - Coming home to work 3-7 :( Then maybe practice or just getting everything ready for the show the next day becasue...

Saturday - School 9:00-3:40 or earlier or else I wont make it to the show on time, so idk i have to talk to big mike T. Then a Show and go it will be fun :)

hmmm thats good for now right?

well naaa i think not

I'm currently listening to big d and the kids table. ITs making me happy. OH! i burned all of the albums on itunes worth while so i finally have decent cds to listen too when i drive, i have to add some more though. what else is an update on my life? ummm im getting a new car!!!! probly in a couple weeks? idk me ron and my dad have to go up there together and our scheduals make that hard. BUT! this one im keeping, my dad i leasing it for 2 years then im taking over the payments. its kinda fun.

well im off to try and get a new myspace song

hey ladies and gents. Life is going goooood. I stopped drinking, and smoking. Im getting decent hours at work again. The band is going good too. We are writing and i finally get to take part in the song creating. We finished the Demo idk if i said that in the last one but im to lazy to check. We need to make more copies though cause we are all sold out again. I cant wait to play another show cause its more and more fun each time. Yesutday was fun. I played wallyball with the usuals plus lindsey :) I want to start playing more and more since school is almost over and it helps keep me in the little bit of shape i manage to hang on too between playing shows and working. uhhhhh Cheryl is in the shop! i cant wait to get my baby back! rose is nice but nothing beats cheryls legacy. and yeah im talking about my cars :) Summer is almost here and i was thinking about it today. I cant wait to go camping, go to the beach, Tan on logans roof, Parties with everyone who left for college, vacations, staying the night, swimming, bbq's, fireworks, a new car!, europe!, elizibeth and bishop park, new friends, touring with the band, meeting new bands... too bad its only 3 months :/

anyyyywayyyy im off to bed casue i have to work @ 8 in the AM


later dater

Its been a while since I've posted. Things have been going good though. Over the weekend SNOM played 2 shows. Saturday's show was amazing at skateland in westland. We played for like 400 people which ive never done. After the show we got our picture with salt the wound which was pretty cool. Sunday kinda sucked. We played the VFW hall in westland and we played 2nd for the 3 bands that arrived on time. but meh, what can you do? We talked to fatal afire about a tour in august of the mid west. Which would just be amazing. Also we are back on to play gore fest. Which will be amazing since its like the metal warped tour and they actually want to get it on the road by next year! Recording tomorrow and thursday blah blah blah it will be cool.

Band stuff aside. Ive been pretty happy lately. There are many reasons why... some of which are still kind of secret but some people know. other reasons include tomorrow is my 4th day in a row off work... kinda making me happy. but im going to miss the money. And idk sometimes i want another job. But i like it there i just hate these night shifts.

Today I hung out with Lindsey. We watched garden state which was really good. Then went to say hi to everyone playing baseball and we meet D at the mall to "sell tickets" haha yeah, its kinda hard to sell them. Also ate at the tropical grill. and let me tell you it has been a while since ive had my smokey bbq wrap. It was delicious. But im getting restless on here i need to get some food or something. OH YEAH! i finally started painting my room again today. Im just going section by section, i narrowed it down to about 6-8 sections. It should be done by summer hahaha ive been taking my time. but yeah thats all i have for now.


Bye bitch, love you

Current Location: Where else?
Current Mood: restless
Current Music: John Mayer

Its been quite a while since I last wrote in here. Florida was amazing and it was a much needed get away. The weather was warm and I got pretty tannnnn. Today I am in a realllllly good mood. Mostly because I havent talked old friend Amanda in a long ass time casue she moved away and I lost my phone and I got to talk to her today :) ALSO tomorrow is my day off. Im going to Canada in the morning with ron for fish and chips. Then later in the evening to the moviessss which im really really excited for. BUT we dont need to know why :)

The past few weeks ive been pretty depressed about a lot of things. but i think its starting to turn around. I started practicing the buddhist custom of eating. Eat only enough to survive normally, never eat until you are full. It helps me feel not so greedy with what I have. If I apply this to more aspects of my life i might even start to appriciate life even more. I also started spoken/prayer meditation instead of just breathing. Ive only done it the past few days and im still getting the hang of it.

Anywayyyyy I will try to write more. even though I am pretty sure no one reads about my life haha. Until then Love ya.

Lately ive been having real problems with sleep. I toss and turn all night. I also have been having these bad dreams. I walk for miles, seeing everyone I know on the way but I never say a single word to them. Although they talk to me and I feel like I am responding becasue they are talking back, I hear nothing being said, Just walking down a road facing forward. At the end of the road Im on a cliff looking down deciding to jump. Not to commit suicide, but to fly and leave everyone. Never have I jumped though, Nor am I sure on if I can really even fly. I just think about it. And I always wake up naked. 4 or 5 times I wake up usually between 3-6, I just fall back asleep and I end up back on the cliff. The cliff seems familiar but I still cant figure it out. Im thinking about taking some pills to help me sleep through the night. Maybe you have an idea on what it could be.

We played wally ball today. It was a lot of fun since we havnt played in forever. Logan steffan greg ian evan and me all played. Nothing went on after but at least I did something constructive today. It would be cool to be in shape again, esspecially for the summer so I can always be doing something. I want to go to the beach in monroe a lot. I went once or twice last summer with Molly and Shannon and id like to go with my friends this year. I cant wait for trips out to the farm, beach vollyball at midnight, parties, roller hockey, shows, water ballons ontop of logans house, prank wars, getting a new car, hopefully finding summer love, but living up these last couple years of free summers with the people that are closest to me. Everything I've done over the past 19 years brought me here for some reason, and I couldn't be happier.

In July after my 20th bday Ill be going overseas for the first time in my life. I want to remember it forever and I know I will. Its something that everyone in the world should do, I mean, You live hear so why not go see it all.

I feel like things are starting to get better then ever. I feel like something big is going to happen soon to change my life, idk what but its coming. But as for now I have to work in the morning and its 2:08.

I love you all

Current Mood: indescribable

Try... really try to understand why we build relationships, have morals, or even justify any action we do if one day it will all be over when we die. Why do we try so hard to hold on to memories if one day you won't be able to remember. What is the point of anything in life when in reality it means nothing.

Its a huge concept to grasp. I've been thinking about it a lot today starting in the shower, which is where I think a lot about useless stuff like this. And now its 1:10 am and I finally realized it is way to big of a concept to understand. Nobody has a legitiment answer to these questions. Because it really is useless. Yes, it does show views of the heathen religion, aka do what feels right no matter what, if killing people makes you happy then kill people, fuck consequenses. If you attempt to understand it you will just give your self a headache. I played it out in my head, as if I was in a movie and I did it. I FIGURED OUT LIFE! and the only way I proved it to everyone was by killing myslef. And for once I felt like I understood the character that would do this. I didn't view him/her as some idiot who went insane. I understood where no one else could.

But yeah, like I said, its too big of a concept to understand so fuck it. At least im using my brain to think and not use it at all. So live life the way it seems right to you. Have morals but don't get carried away. And I suppose if you are going to not care becasue you understand one day it will mean nothing when you are dead remember that even though you are gone there are other people still living, and there will always be people living until something huge happens and who knows if that day will ever come, so basically dont fuck it up for everyone else, even when every person today will be gone, there will always be someone from tomorrow who lived with someone from today.


1:18 am

goodnight

Last night was my first night on stage in a couple years. It went over way better then I thought. We qualified for the finals in the battle of the bands. So come see SNOM April first at the token lounge. I missed the loading shit up and getting in a car and driving to a show. It was fun to do it again and hopefully a lot more times to come. After the show Me, Trevor, Josh, Nick, and Lindsey went to zorbas to get food.

Six days until Florida! Why does it always feel like you go on vacation at the worst time. -There is kind of a meaning for that but I'm not going into it, its kind of a secret. But I am excited to go.

I thought a lot about stuff over the past few days. I'm going to change my morals. There are things I used to value that I started to lose sight of. I'm 19 and I need to grow up a little bit. And this has nothing to do with acting like an idiot or making fun of people, just being a whore. I'm going to drink less and maybe even party sober a few times haha.

Today is my cleanup day. Im going to wash all my clothes and bed sheets, and clean up my room. Maybe even do some homework if nothing is going on tonight. So I have to get going on that stuff. So until later... brutal kisses

Amazing. One word that could describe how I feel right now. Amazing. If you were to ask me "but why Georg? why do you feel so amazing?" I would have to respond with "Friend... I do not know" Im guessing its the weather. Although its windy out today and a little colder then the past 2 days its sunny and that makes me happy.

Next... Plans plans plans for the next week. Friday I get paid (which is much needed ive been broke since yesturday) But I also work. Then probly hang out with friends. Saturday is class then work then drinking with friends somewhere, we dont know where yet. Then Sunday is the big show. Im pumped for it and hope that you people make it out there to support me since you call me your friend.

Then the countdown starts. One week of work and 3 days of classes until spring break florida 2k7. Yesturday we were at the airport pickin up our little sailor (greg) from the navy, and I realized how excited I really am to be there again in 10 days becasue my favorite part of vacations is flying.

I've thought a little bit on relationships these past few days and I think it would be nice for one and everything but between band practice, school, work, and my friends.. I'm really busy all the time. If I find someone who can fit into all of that it would be amazing, but if not i wont be too crushed. I do want to try and develop some morals though, I've become a person that I once dispised and it would be nice to come back. Even if it does make me look like a child. I'm still going to drink, but im going to cut out smoking completly even when drinking. As for everything else... lets just say im going to try and hang out with different girls. No offense to the ones I know now, but... ahhhh, idk how to say this but if we are friends you probly know what I'm talking about. And NOOOOO this isnt pointing at someone, if anything its pointing at me so don't anyone get in a tizzy.

Well I am late for band practice almost so its about time to be hittin the old dusty trail. Until next time, suck a fat chode


:)

Yesturdays party was pretty amazing. Some people got fuckkkkked up. But its cool, no one died :) This morning was amazing to say the least. and we are not going into it... But Working 8 hours was shit. My feet hurt all day and i thought I might die. And I get to go back tomorrow :( Im worried about money for florida, im still waiting on my phone rebate and my income tax... which would help out seeing as it equals $390. Florida is closer and closer, I can't wait to be in the sun with friends :) I was really pumped about writing in this today but im being distracted by people online so ill just write tomorrow when I wake up before work :)

brutal kisses